These all so tiring years.

I'm in the basement hiding from my kids right now. I don't know what happened but all of a sudden the life got sucked out of me. Read Isaiah 40 before I came down, trying to scrape something together to get me through the bedtime routine. Posted on facebook my status. Someone said they wanted to come and hide too. ;o) Quickly wrote, before someone else could, the all so common statement "but the years pass so quick and then you want them back." Yes, yes they do, and I guess that's what I'm holding out for tonight. Two days without much time away from the house OR any daddy. He's late again and think I've just hit my limit. On another note, but kind of the same... FINALLY got Tommy's tests results from his "specimen in a cup" that took all but half a day of running around with two kids in tow to deliver. The word, "sterile". Ugh! I knew that was the point but it didn't hit me until is was time to find out whether the "snip" worked. For a couple of reasons I'm so glad we're done. I'm sure that the jump from two to three would be even harder then one to two AND I KNOW another pregnancy would have been harder. But you can't help and think of all the people wait to find out they are sterile only to their great despair. Oh well, no looking back just forward. Forward to the fact that soon this night will be over and both kids will be in bed. And for now I will remain excited about the prospect of them being able to put themselves to bed in a few (or more) years.

Driveway Play (p)

Felt Like Taking Pictures and All I Had Was Me (and Stella & Dot)! (P)

Sowing, Reaping, Eating

Isaiah 37:30
"this will be the sign for you, O Hezekiah:
"This year you will eat what grows by itself,
and the second year what springs from that.
But in the third year sow and reap,
plant vineyards and eat their fruit.

This is the scripture that I was brought to when praying about starting this Stella & Dot venture. It's seemed pretty clear and yet I was unsure what it meant. Today as I picked Haylie up from school, her bad behavior made it clear to me that something has got to change. Something that I'm doing has got to change. I need to pour more time and energy into being her parent. God gave me this chance to be home with my kids, and though he doesn't care whether or not I do Stella & Dot, He does want me to do it His way. I love having something outside the of the home but I am finding that it does take attention away from the duties at home, my kiddos and my husband. It's been fun but I finding myself tempted to spend more time then I should "doing business." I really WANT Stella & Dot and I don't feel God telling me to quite, but rather telling me to cool it a little and leave it to Him, because after all, this year and next is about "eating what grows by itself." Man, that's hard to trust and understand but I should know better. It really makes perfect sense. In a couple of years four things will most likely happen: The economy will hopefully get better, Haylie will be in kindergarten, I'll have learned more about having a business and Stella & Dot will have built a reputation. Until then this scripture and Psalm 37:3-9 will be what I cling to. How neat it will be to see God do the work instead of trying to do it myself. I know I'm not alone in this so many moms struggle to find balance between work and family. Heck, guys probably do to. It's a never ending battle, one that's meant to be handed over to God, one day at a time.

Trip to AZ to See Mom and Dad (P)

All Clear For Landing (V)

That's The Way, ah ha, ah, ha, I Like It, ah ha, ah ha!

Stella & Dot's new Spring/Summer 2010 styles are on-line! Can't wait to see them all in person. Going to a party Monday night to check it all out. WHOOHOO!! Will post pictures soon!!