Change

I was told that I should write because it's been a while. At that given moment I was thinking to myself "if you can't say anything nice then don't say anything at all." I wanted so badly to vent about this and that but I really don't know what good it would do. It would just reinforce my negative thoughts. What I really need is a good douse of truth. This has been a rough couple of weeks. The lay off, illness, sick kids, travel with the holiday... Brady has been changing so much, I can't believe my little boy has got two teeth. It all takes adjustment. My sleep has been suffering and our schedules have been, well, unscheduled. Haylie seems to be more of a handful every day, so emotional too. I don't know if we're doing something wrong or what. So many things waiting to get done. Now Christmas is nearing not to mention a whole new year. I have no idea what my future holds. Something wonderful I hope. ;o) I know I'll be working either at an office or here at home. An office would be nice because that would mean I could get out of the house. But at the office I don't get to see my kids, the house suffers, the family suffers. It's not an easy job, staying at home. I don't even no if I will get the opportunity to do it. I am for now. I'll have to make the best of it. And that's where I get over whelmed. Trying to be super mom, super wife, super homemaker. I want everything in order, in it's place, and planned out. I look back and I see all the "I's". If I could just let those go. I will have too. ;o)
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.